before this entry i'm just saying that i have a calendar... and if you have money should buy it go here --> [link]

well here it is, the new year. don't feel different do ya, or did you get that certain person to talk to you tonight, or maybe you just made your bond stronger with your friends, maybe you even found out that some friends are much more worth it than others,, and if your me you just found out your english skills suck... well i knew that before, but now its official.
so honestly i'm not sure what exactly this blog is on.. i had this really strong urge to write so here i am. but i promise there will be something i've learned or some kind of profound thought in the end.
i've decided it was amazing that i was able to be home for new years. i've always been stuck in friggen texas during the new year... well at least the last like 4 years. driven home from lousiana and arkansas seems to get shorter everytime we go. coming back i drove, then slept then drove through some of the worst snow conditions i had ever seen, (there was some drifting that i owned and ya...) but being back here in my very loved home was awesome. me jake leesha and rachel all went to chilis and had some awesome food. then we went to aleesha's and played some wii, a trivia game that was crazy with all four of us. and then we tried risk... but matt and jake were the only ones that really stayed focused. so me rachel aleesha went back to trivia and some wii sports. then we ran outside at midnight and they kissed the side walk... then there was one of those random picture moments.
anyway... first of all thx for everyone that made last year awesome. and the random events that most nobody gets to experience. for example. how many of you have had a friend that is going to school in florida come home and make your passenger window explode by trying to roll it down... thats right. nobody but me. in fact last year had some really cool memories. being the first year that i really hung out with people and just really lived the high school life... minus the doobies . and even other than that theres been alot of stuff i've gotten into.
stage crew is one of the most interesting thing that i've done. i'm easily the most knowledgable... and even though being the newest member have secured a spot as "the guy with keys". yep thats right i can get in the tunnels and all that fun stuff... just don't have a door key lame. and besides being able to skip out on some classes and not have it counted against you (and sometimes being paid to do it) is a nice perk. i've met some coo ppl and i feel that i've been set there for a reason... so we'll see how i do. i've been praying that i'm given the strength and position to help... i think this is it.

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also i've gotten alot more involved at church... and althought it takes up 75 percent of my life i love love love love it. not only am i like in charge of everythin in epic (tech wise) but i'm doing alot with the adult services, i'm running media shout and the sound board as well as making amazing movies (so i hear...) and i reallylove it.. alot of ppl think i would get burned out on it... and maybe i will in a bit. but when i decided to be an intern i really wanted to try and do some speaking and hopefully i'll get a chance for that in the next year.
also in the last year i have been able to volunteer at St. Annes. not so much like cleanin and decorating or whatever, but i've been able to use my gift to help them out. awhile back there was a big meeting for the big donators and i was asked to make a movie that sumed up what st annes was and what they did, you know to reasure the ppl that their money is going to good use. so i did a movie that sumed it up with some interviews, and thankfully on the day we showed it the room was way bright from the sun and you oculd barely see it. (i thought it was crap... i had to use windows movie maker. it was bad i promise. but you can see it on my youtube page if you really want to see it [link])

here i'll try to embed:
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also after awhile i was approached to help them redo they're web site. and although a bit unsure at first i heard i get a computer out of it... and my old one bit the dust just a few days before (but now i just found out it might of just been the hardrive... i still have to look at it.) also this new computer is a linux machine so i get to learn a whole new OS. its been fun working with that although i'll admit that i havn't been putting as much time as i should into it. and although having some problems i think its coming together. (i would give a link but its not released yet so.. when its up i'll show yall)

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so other than my little service adventures i still have school unfortunately. well really its not bad... just i feel like i'm waisting alot of my time in some classes. for example this year i basically teach my multimedia class.. i mean i was writing lesson plans for most of the flash segment. so i think what i'm going to do is start some collage classes soon at the ATC. and since i'm still in highschool the school will pay for it! ownage. yep and then theres the math and history classes that i still dont' study for... i'm just special i gues... my teachers get mad at me cuz i don't and get pretty good scores.
as for girls this year it was just pretty lame... stupid things on my part, stupid ppl... stupid things said... and one just holy crap confusing. and if any of you are wonderin i am still single so come get some lol... but seriously...

another sweet subject was the awesome friendships i've had this year.. and also my view on everything that happens between em. this year i re met with one of my better friends from elementary school that i found out has been living 10 minutes away for the past 7 years. its wierd cuz i would get random memories of her all the time.. then i remet er... she hasn't changed much either... but anyway. the rest of my friendships have either grown into amazing ones or kinda drifted apart. some within the last month have been amazing. and some i've lost completely. and with all this drama crap goin on i end up in the middle. you see with me i'm friends with alot of ppl. and when two of em get in some fight and stop hanging out two thigns happen. i end up having to hang with them at different time, and i hear both sides or they're stories and try to comfort and help both of them. me and whitaker both have this going on and we keep eachother sane. school friends i've even become more close to. so for friendships it was a good year and i hope for the best next.

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so i've decided a few things need to change this year.
1. i've decided that i will work more on friendships rather than trying to git wit em... if that makes since
2. i've decided that i'm going to try and be more spontanious and try not to have everythign planned out to the smallest detail before i do it.
3. learn to spell things like spontanious. and just spell better in general along with better english skillz (this is the only one i probly won't keep)
4. try and live life as God would want me to and try and get certain things that are in my way of doing that out. even if that includes ppl.
5. try and be a better witness, and be not as shy about who i am and who makes me run.

i may add more but those are the main ones (minus 3 kinda)

anyway i hope that your last year was amazing. and i hope 2008 will be too.

thanks to all my friends, to everyone that cares enough to read this hulk, to anyone that has decided i'm an ok guy even though i'm a geek and way to technical... not to mention the long winded stories. thanks to the people who are there for me to talk to, rachel, aleesha, jake, amy, matt, dave, lexy, kurt. all of you, you keep me sane and have helped me in my walk with God more than you know. i hope that in some way i've also helped you. and if not i'm sry and i hope i find a way to repay you in this coming year. thank you barcley for believing in me and really pushing me to what i'm capable of, even if i really wasn't willing. thank you chad for being the most amazign thing that has ever happened to the Jr. High at WHBC. everything you have done has encouraged me to get involved and help your ministry. thank you dave for being not only a brother in Christ to go to, but also a good friend that i can just come and play some video games or some magic and just relax aorund a great group of ppl. thank you to all the janitors at church. that really make everything there possible. you guys are not only awesome guys that are always there and always fun, but church would not be the same without ya. thanks josh for letting me really help with the computer stuff, and thanks for believing in me enough to make me a team leader, it means alot to me. thank you terry so much for passing your knowledge to me and always being so willing to give up your time to make sure that everyone is comfortable with everything and making sure everything goes well. thank you paula for being one of the coolest craziest parent i've ever known. jake, oh man jake, thank you for being the most amazing friend in our crazy who knows what kind of ppl we are group. you keep me sane and even though i may not entirely want you to join the army and stuff. i support you wherever you go man. just don't forget about us here. and last but not least the jr highers. you guys may not know how lucky you guys are to have chad. and you may not know it but you all influence me in different ways. you all seem to have a love for christ and life that i have never seen in jr highers before. you all will achieve amazing things. don't ever let anyone tell you differently. just keep close to God and let him guide you. go out there and be the people that everyone can't get enough of. its in you i've seen it. be the future, the reason for others to live, please don't give up... we need you. i'm prayin for all of you and hope that you all grow closer to God. you are what makes life worth living everyday. everyday you make it something new and exciting. (sry if i left yoru name out its 3 in the mornin k)

happy new year.